Bones, My foundation is changing:

I haven’t journaled in a while. I’ve been struggling with an incredibly painful lower back—too painful to even paint. However, I’ve managed to putter around in the studio and start another painting on paper. Working on paper allows me to avoid standing, which aggravates my bones. Yes, bones—my focus at this time. They are the foundation of my flesh.

After a "brief" doctor’s visit this week—a visit lasting less than five minutes—I was told, in a matter-of-fact British accent:"Oh, this is a bread-and-butter visit. I get people in here every day, all day. You’re of age now—osteoarthritis. Everyone has it at this age, and if they don’t, they will. Nothing we can do about it. Yes, everyone gets it. Get used to it. Tylenol for pain at night."

Her stone-cold face fell silent as she stared at me blankly. I stood up and left.

My back has since settled, and I’m feeling better now, but the experience shook me to my core. It was a shock to hear those words, and it literally shook my foundation. I’ve thought long and hard about it, come to terms with it, and decided to take action in my stride. I’m continuing my daily walks, making sure I keep moving, doing research, and staying determined to overcome the challenges of this condition.

I want to get back to work, but I was thrown off balance. Now, I must find my way back to the studio.

I have some new visions I’d like to explore. For now, I regurgetated this with my mind a blur after I’ve returning to the studio and worked through my emotions. While not much came of this session (see below), it helped me process my life and current condition.

So I am working on this painting for now.....

I am considering making changes to my studio which may take two weeks out of our regular living, also as summer is here we do need to do some paintwork on this old house, so you see, this summer i do not see too much happeneing in terms of art work. Summers are so short in Canada, July and August and we roll into fall (its still quite chilly, in fact id say it is sunny one minute and a bit drippy the next. We drop everything to steal moments outdoors in the sun when we have it.

So we have been walking and the views have been spectacular

Our local park is always welcoming I love to walk my dogs here.

This walk boasts many natural arbours

and there has been the garden which during this difficult time i seeked comfort from rather than nurtured

Gardens always bring hope

My Garden so alive and peaceful

My Bones, my bodies foundation, is changing and i hope to live every living day favorably passionately and make every moment count. I want to do whatever I can to maintain this vehicle/body.